Everytime the year is coming to an end I feel how everything steadily gets busier and busier until the year reaches its peak with the holiday season, and this year seems especially crazy x.x The visitor numbers are through the roof, my working place's going through a massive renovation that makes everything 100x more inconvenient, everybody suddenly wants to see me and hang out and I'm working from morning to night everyday until Christmas Eve.... But I'm not complaining, no, it makes time fly by faster when you're occupied and well, I am!
I haven't drawn in two weeks and currently I'm too busy to even fret about it. I managed to get my HRBB14 entry out on time, though, and I'm very happy with the results. I'll post some selected artworks from it here, too, when I have more time. I'm also knee-deep in a more personal career-oriented project right now that's taking most of my concentration, but I'll keep that hushed up until I have some confirmed information. So art will probably be very scarce until sometime next year, since I won't have the time to draw until the holidays.
I'm also on hiatus on Tumblr until I find the time to go watch The Battle of the Five Armies, which will be later in January, most likely. Like I said I'm working every single day apart from national holidays, during which theatres aren't even open, so I have no chance at all for getting to see it anytime soon. It'll be a massive feels fest anyway, so I'm in no hurry to see it, personally, and I've avoided trailers and leaked music and everything so far since there is literally no time to get emotionally caught up in a movie right now D: Cruel, but that's real life for you.
Haha, I get the feeling that all my journals these days are basically just different variations of "BUSY!!!" but that's just how it goes. I'm also sad to announce that I had to make the extremely difficult decision of dropping Terms Of Submission for good, because there is no chance in hell I'll have the time to actually devote time for writing any Amnesia stuff anymore and I'd want to edit the whole thing and it was still lacking three full chapters so nope, I just can't find the time for that. I might have been able to push out the third chapter but it felt rushed and wasn't what I wanted it to be, and I don't want to publish substandard stuff that I've squeezed out between an extremely tight working schedule. It has been deleted from my AO3 and if by some miracle in the unforeseeable future I will have the time to get excited about Amnesia again and actually devote weeks of my already limited free time to the story I might republish is as a oneshot. But the way things stand right now I've decided that I'll focus my energies on more important things like my working life and personal life instead of trying to exhaust myself mentally working on something I don't even want to work on.
Basically, all of this is part of me realizing that I'll be turning 27 next spring and I decided that it's time for me to choose which direction I want my life to take instead of wandering around vaguely and pushing decision-making towards some random point of time in the future when you have known all along what you will choose and how you want to live your life. I'm not saying I'm now all grown-up or an adult, because frankly, I don't feel any different from before, but well, it's one of those moments in life when you understand you have all the tools you need to pursue what you want from life and I kind of decided to get to work. And well, I'm happy with where my life is and where I'm taking it, and lingering when you know you will have to work hard towards your goal eventually is pointless. So I'll go for it and do my best, as I always do.